Mood: 
Worn out
So after I got up at like 10 this morning (felt SOOO good to sleep in!) I decided to make some new smiles for this blog (and I really do ♥ the clould! got insperation from this picture
HERE) And then started to plan to make some text one, and then i did about 4 hours or so of yard work, which left me feeling good but tired. So today was pretty much a good day
But yesterday just ended up horridly! And it was no one's falut
but my own, sad to say.
Me and Willy went out on a date to see the movie
Transformers. This was my second time seeing it, because i had to see it for work months ago, but this was Willy's frist time, and he more than enjoyed it
He was kinda loud in the theater which was pissing the lady infornt of us off, but we weren't borthed by it. He's from New York so he has the right to be loud right?
Then we went to this really fancy nice Italian resturant called '
Tutta Bella where we had a lovely dinner and chatted to catch up since last time, which was only two days but whatever. We ordered a the house salad and a large size Meditrainian pizza with chicken on one side for him and eggplant on the other side because i'm a vegetrarian lol. The dinner was really nice and like always the conversation was smooth and very pleasent. And then we went for a little walk around the neigborhood and talked some more before I headed home.
Great date right? Of course it was. But once I got home, I began to panic again, thinking that it might not be
me he wants but just the idea. Because how does a man that sexy and cool fall for a girl that's spazt and neurotic like me?
I need to stop thinking like that though. I know that if i do, it'll just make things harder for him. It's not his falut i had trouble in my past realtionshhips right?
Anyways, I'm heading out to go see him now--it's great to have him so close to me, so when I do have these panic attacks, i can just talk to him about it
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EDIT----
So I just got back from Willy's house and told him how I felt. He was so sweet about it! He told me that it
was me that he wanted and that he loved my corky self and wouldn't have me anyother way because i was fine just the way i was. And then he told me that if i ever felt insecure again, just come to hime and he'll show me i had nothing to wonder about
Tell me, how amazing is this guy!
